Im sure Im writing nothing here new when I say this, but life doesnt always go the way you want. Sometimes you bend down, settle for things, cave in and before you realise, youre no longer the person who you thought you were. You dont even recognise the person staring back in the mirror at you. That person who was so filled of hope and dreams and passions and promises of all that life could bring, only to find out too late it was all an illusion. A bitter twisted lie. Which leads me to question; Are we really in charge of our destiny? Master of our own fate? Is this what we really would have chosen if we made the choice? Somehow the answers dont all add up.
We then lie to ourselves to make it better. To feel good. To get up in the morning..knowing that someone out there is probably even more twisted or broken up inside. It’s what keeps us alive. Ticking. Going. Knowing that we are not alone in our sad pathetic attempt to make a reasonable go of our lives. And I dont say this out of self pity or loathing or baiting…only a quiet contemplation and reflection. Becuase even when we set goals and reach to that victory milestone..somehow it leaves a sour unfinished taste in our mouth..that…maybe …just maybe we have sold ourselves alittle short somehow…
that we have bought into a dream….a promise…a goal…that wasnt really there in the first place..only..like the good old saying goes…only fools rush in….but does it make us a fool for trying? Heaven forbid….it is only the fool that stops and gives up…that caves in..that get desponded and depressed becuase you maked up your life to someone’s else ideals and dreams and goals…You must learn how to set your self free again. To untangle those webs that threaten to bind and squeeze you in. You must examine what is truth for your life and how to go about exacting that truth no matter how much painful or selfish it may be…We live for three score years and maybe four….what a pity it would be …to not have enjoyed alittle bit of the process along the way…
Things do not have to shape you who are…health…wealth…finances…circumstances…what is man if not to push against all odds…to reach a destiny that is unmistakening his and his alone…Take a hard good look at yourself and your life…Is this person that you whispered about growing up or starting out in the world…what has happened to your spirit…your drive…your twinkle…your unbeaten determination to make your own way no matter what….to not give in…cave…become one of the masses….tied down by your bills and guilt and debt..how did you get here..and more importantly..what are you going to do about it….Life doesnt give us that many chances to assess and begin again so we should seize all where we can…
Reach out and touch your dreams…yours and yours alone…not your momma….or grandma…or husbands…or family…or foe…reach out and touch your own dream…and blossom in that person you were meant to be..
