the itch is back..

My curse. My thirst. My fever…to seek new lands and explore exotic worlds…to sample strange dishes and take pictures to my heart’s delights..to take in the sights and sounds of something new..Ahhhh..Im a wanderlust…always was..still am and always will be…Why do you think I’m still here in this country..so far away from home. To be honest..I dont even know why people leave this country to vacation somewhere else. Everything you want is here…mountains..sea..scenary…culture..shopping..eating…seasons and the occasional sun…yes we get sunshine too. I feel this nation in my viens…not that im betraying home of course. I still love the Bahamas…but my favourite queen lived here…ruled here with her powerful mighty sceptre…Queen Elizabeth the first…the virgin queen. I worship that woman..the will…the strenght..the peverserance to hang on no matter to what was rightfully hers and to demolish all that stood in her way..a no nonsense woman heehe..
and to think i live here too..breathing the same air she did..admiring the same views..history unchanged…standing true forever…why go anywhere else…

But I am a restless soul..prone to a listless eye and endless admirars ..i need more..to see more..do more when i get ‘the itch’…and i have the itch for Europe. Big time. I plan to visit at three European cities next year life spares…Italy, France and Belgium top of my list…husband included or not. I did come into this world alone you know! hehe..Ive got tons of travel brochures and when winter hits..true winter…I shall curl up in front of my wood burner stove with a hot mug of tea and shift away to my heart’s content. See…Im so easily pleased heehe.

But for now…Im going back to watching the travel channel… The weather may look grey outside..but inside..im cooking up a storm in Sweden with my cross stitch kit. I hope youve got somewhere good to go as well next year.
Hope springs eternal.

its a gray day outside..

and im sitting indoors trying to have a cup of tea. I could wander into town but somehow cant muster the energy…so i think i will just sit here and rot in peace heehe..and watch the birds peck for worms in my garden..

happy friday to you too..

it doesnt have to be this way…

Im just sitting here at my computer thinking that being broke is a lonely place to be at Christmas. My new job doesnt start for a while so Ive got to conserve the little funds ive got until I can get more.  This morning, after another glorious round of sunshine and cool winds ( beleive me it was a lot colder this time last year), I headed into town. The bus company have been steadily rising  its price for months for I suppose we’ve all got bills to pay. After I arrived in town I went into Colemans to get some photocopying done and then unto the postoffice. The line was short for a change.

I decided to windowshop for abit instead of just rushing back home. Big mistake. I should have returned home and put the kettle. Everywhere I lookedwas christmas…finds here..presents here. Christmas with a price. Ive got four adorable nephews and one beautiful neice that I’d like to send items to, but i havent a penny to spare, and the more I looked the worse I felt. How do people without incomes do it? At least I’ll have a job soon thank God, although I wont be paid in time to do anything about it. Maybe I become a Scotmans and just celebrate the new year instead.

I had five pounds in my purse and had to decide between having lunch in a cafe or returning to town another day. Bus fares arent free, and ive got a weekly budget. I decided to go home. It was all too tirying. My wedding anniversary is coming up in a few weeks so ive got to save money for that. My husband and I plan to visit the seaside together and stay other. It was my idea so im paying for the hotel while he covers the meals. I dont have to pay for anything at home so the least i can do is to handle my own funds until i can work again.

Being in town broke is no place to be at christamas time..(it might as well be judging from all the window displays i saw!)

I hope your day was better.

Cheers

Candy Adderley-Dawe

You couldnt ask for more…

This morning I awoke to the rays of the sun trying to tug their way into my bedroom. Ordinally I’d just lay there on a cold November day but I’d yet to meet someone to resist the powers of the sun in this country! So I got up, quickly showered and came downstairs, leaving the bedrooms cracked open just alittle. I must remember to close them before my husband gets in from work. The night before was such a case….and he was greeted by a swift blast of cold air when he went upstairs to change. ehehe…it’s not funny i know.

I cam downstairs, flung open the curtains wide leading unto the back garden and soaked up as much joyshine as i could. The wild birds that come to the garden every morning and 4pm needed feeding so I drudged outside to do that and then watch them squabble over who” get the remains. It’s been a beautiful day so far.
After a light breakfast of toast drizzled in honey, fruit and a herbal tea, I intend to stroll to the nearby village to get all my postings done in time for Christmas! Ive got family in China and The Bahamas and with this ongoing postal strike, Id best get a move on.
Ive also got to ring the local registrar office to arrange my citizenship ceremony where Im allowed to take two guests.

The rest of the day will be spent cross stitching..watching my soaps…and doing research for my latest novel. Shhhh.it’s still a secret.

I hope you had a good start to your day too and if not…there’s no reason why it still cant finish spectacularly!
Cheers
Candy Adderley-Dawe

Ive come a long way baby

Today I got my papers in the post which stated my application for British citizenship had been accepted pending me attending a ceremony to swear my allegience to the Queen and this country first. And this year March I got my Bahamas RGN license updated so that i can practice nursing here. It seems i have come a long way baby. This country is now my home and i will do my best to honour, love, respect, contribute to and obey it.
I love this beautiful shores and changing seasons and moody weather. I love the hype before christmas and drama shows. I love the varied coastline and striving culture. Im glad to be a part of it all.

Im still waiting for my CRB to clear before I start my new nursing post but God is good so I will wait. Ive been good otherwise. I had a great summer experience traveling/working between home and Devon and I hope to back to The Bahamas for a visit soon.
I hope you had a good summer too.

Heres a cup of cocoa for the winter time.
cheers
candy

Quite a shame isn’t it?

How easily the soul gets bored..and the mind restless? ever seeking after the latest thing and newest conquest….if not ..nothing would change and everything would stay the same forever…same thing really, but who’s checking? Why must we stay in a constant state of flux? We want one thing, but no sooner than we get it…we dash off chasing the next thing not caring who we hurt in the process, including ourselves.

I dont know why i get bored so easily but i do. I get bored, bored bored. Bored of the richer getting richer and the poor getting poorer. Bored of the news and ever expanding headlines. Bored of the monotomy of the work home life cycle. Bored of having to write columns like this on a weekly basis to get ratings up so that i feel important. Bored of the latest chatwag or social networking procedure..Bored of just sitting and staring at rows of brown houses from my bedroom window. Bored of this weather and wishing that it would shine. Bored that I’ve got no money and no place else to go. Just bored….bored…bored

I long to break free….to quit my job for a year…to sail around the world…get a caravan and take to the British coast recording the tales of my journey….I long for sunlight kisses and moonlight walks..to go cycling in the rain and lying up watching stars…I long to go and answer to no one…to have babies when i want and not be tied to an aging clock ot world recession or someone’s agression…I long to break free…

But where does one go when free in a world so oppressed?
The best thing one can hope for is to sit at their computer and type thirsty longings into the keyboard praying that someone would listen and smile and nod awhile…

Delicious sunny days in England

I know most people hate the dreaded word ‘Monday’, but how could you not love a monday like this in England? Sweet early summer breeze…blue skies…birds in the air…sun in the sky…the only shame would be in staying at work and missing it all. But I guess we cant have everything! Yesterday was gorgeous as well and my husband and I spent our day pottering in the garden, topping up the soil, rooting out weeds, planting vegetable and flower seeds. How I love to see a garden in bloom..ahhhh. The daffs have seen better days, but the lavender is just starting to smell while bees linger near. We took a short stroll hand in hand to our local garden center to see what was on offer and ended up buying things we hadnt set out to! What is it about good weather that puts you in a spending mood? After our hard day was done we laid up on a picnic blanket on the freshly cut grass and had icecream.

before he dashed off to watch the FA cup semi final of course ehehe…at which point I went back to my garden and cross stitching..

when the sun is shining in England…it’s like no other place on earth…

Beautiful day in England

Sun was out..
bumble bees
daffodils..
crocus…
smell of fresh earth,,
planting of vegetable seeds
writing penpals..
blues skies
warm breeze..
no where else id rather be…

what do you do

when things dont go your way?

Do you stop and give up?

Or press on and continue the fight?

Only you can decide…

and live with the consequences..

but if you press on for a little while longer..

you will soon see the light.

love candy

Is it what you want?

Then WHY are you doing it?
Who do you have to please, appease, or prove something to?
Arent you a free person? A beautiful seperate entity?
Who’s attention or praise is more worthy than own?
Who have witnessed your pain? your struggles?
Your destiny?
Who’s hands should it be in than yours?
Beginning today…you can say ‘enough is enough’ and start to regain control of your life.
Im rooting for you.