Delicious sunny days in England

I know most people hate the dreaded word ‘Monday’, but how could you not love a monday like this in England? Sweet early summer breeze…blue skies…birds in the air…sun in the sky…the only shame would be in staying at work and missing it all. But I guess we cant have everything! Yesterday was gorgeous as well and my husband and I spent our day pottering in the garden, topping up the soil, rooting out weeds, planting vegetable and flower seeds. How I love to see a garden in bloom..ahhhh. The daffs have seen better days, but the lavender is just starting to smell while bees linger near. We took a short stroll hand in hand to our local garden center to see what was on offer and ended up buying things we hadnt set out to! What is it about good weather that puts you in a spending mood? After our hard day was done we laid up on a picnic blanket on the freshly cut grass and had icecream.

before he dashed off to watch the FA cup semi final of course ehehe…at which point I went back to my garden and cross stitching..

when the sun is shining in England…it’s like no other place on earth…

Beautiful day in England

Sun was out..
bumble bees
daffodils..
crocus…
smell of fresh earth,,
planting of vegetable seeds
writing penpals..
blues skies
warm breeze..
no where else id rather be…

what do you do

when things dont go your way?

Do you stop and give up?

Or press on and continue the fight?

Only you can decide…

and live with the consequences..

but if you press on for a little while longer..

you will soon see the light.

love candy

Is it what you want?

Then WHY are you doing it?
Who do you have to please, appease, or prove something to?
Arent you a free person? A beautiful seperate entity?
Who’s attention or praise is more worthy than own?
Who have witnessed your pain? your struggles?
Your destiny?
Who’s hands should it be in than yours?
Beginning today…you can say ‘enough is enough’ and start to regain control of your life.
Im rooting for you.

How did we get here?

Im sure Im writing nothing here new when I say this, but life doesnt always go the way you want. Sometimes you bend down, settle for things, cave in and before you realise, youre no longer the person who you thought you were. You dont even recognise the person staring back in the mirror at you. That person who was so filled of hope and dreams and passions and promises of all that life could bring, only to find out too late it was all an illusion. A bitter twisted lie.  Which leads me to question; Are we really in charge of our destiny? Master of our own fate? Is this what we really would have chosen if we made the choice? Somehow the answers dont all add up.

We then lie to ourselves to make it better. To feel good. To get up in the morning..knowing that someone out there is probably even more twisted or broken up inside. It’s what keeps us alive. Ticking. Going. Knowing that we are not alone in our sad pathetic attempt to make a reasonable go of our lives. And I dont say this out of self pity or loathing or baiting…only a quiet contemplation and reflection. Becuase even  when we set goals and reach to that victory milestone..somehow it leaves a sour unfinished taste in our mouth..that…maybe …just maybe we have sold ourselves alittle short somehow…

that we have bought into a dream….a promise…a goal…that wasnt really there in the first place..only..like the good old saying goes…only fools rush in….but does it make us a fool for trying? Heaven forbid….it is only the fool that stops and gives up…that caves in..that get desponded and depressed becuase you maked up your life to someone’s else ideals and dreams and goals…You must learn how to set your self free again. To untangle those webs that threaten to bind and squeeze you in. You must examine what is truth for your life and how to go about exacting that truth no matter how much painful or selfish it may be…We live for three score years and maybe four….what a pity it would be …to not have enjoyed alittle bit of the process along the way…

Things do not have to shape you who are…health…wealth…finances…circumstances…what is man if not to push against all odds…to reach a destiny that is unmistakening his and his alone…Take a hard good look at yourself and your life…Is this person that you whispered about growing up or starting out in the world…what has  happened to your spirit…your drive…your twinkle…your unbeaten determination to make your own way no matter what….to not give in…cave…become one of the masses….tied down by your bills and guilt and debt..how did you get here..and more importantly..what are you going to do about it….Life doesnt give us that many chances to assess and begin again so we should seize all where we can…

Reach out and touch your dreams…yours and yours alone…not your momma….or grandma…or husbands…or family…or foe…reach out and touch your own dream…and blossom in that person you were meant to be..

Have you lost the ability to dream?

” What separates man from the animal is the ability to DREAM. It is thus our responsibility to DREAM as big as possible and as long as we live, never desert it, reject it, discard it, abandon it or forget it. Instead thank God that you have the ability to DREAM and believe that you have the capability to translate it into reality. Believing in your DREAM will energize your capability and you will see it coming TRUE.”
Copyright © 2009 Sreemoy Ghose
Innumerable examples of dreams coming true have proved that it is only the human race that can dream and only those who believed in their dreams have made them come true.

What went down must come…

Good morning to all my friends, family and love ones. Hope you had a good weekend so far. Im just laying up here on my sofa watching a British period drama (think Wives and Daughters, Pride and Prejudice) with a lovely cup of tea. My husband is away on business so I have the sofa but more importantly, remote control, all to myself. ehehe. Ive changed my bird water for the morning, put some new feed out and gazed at some starlings and their youngs coming to nest in the bottom of my garden. Ive even saw some new shoots on my apple tree and daffodils poking their head out of the cold frozen ground. Ibet they are waiting for spring every bit as anxiously as I am. ehehe.
It’s a typical grey English day with overcast skies and thundering dark clouds with a flicker of sunlight only once this morning, and so short, you would have sworn you only made it up. Ive already popped by the local shop to get my sunday paper, which i intend to indulge with another cup of tea later. And maybe a few biscuits. (Of course I wont spoil my dinner ehehe)
My visa returned this month so I can now stay in this country for the rest of my life and Ive also passed my nursing course which means I can work as a registered nurse also. See..what goes down must also come up..so hang in there whatever the trouble or woe. Give that thing a look in its eyes and tell it …its days are numbered. That you wont be party to it much longer and that you intend to live your life debt free, whole and loved. Financially, emotionally, physically and spiritually secured. That you intend to have it. All of it. everything that everyone else is having and that you are entitled to. .a man or woman to love you, a roof over your head, cupboards filled with food, friends to call and love, a secure and satisfying job…money to roam and travel…why not…yes why not…stop selling yourself so short..
ooo i love you my bahamas land. Ive got a huge hole in my heart where you used to be and every night I go to bed my dreams are filled of you. with your sweet salty kisses and windswept charm…I dont know how longer I can kids myself to stay in this country….but for now…I will go back to my birdwatching..cup of tea and period drama..longing for a slice of macaroni and cheese, peas and rice..coleslaw…fried plaintain..and bar-b-que chicken or ribs..

Something Good is going to happen to you

I came by to tell you today that yes my friend…it is true…something GOOD is going to happen to you/..
You’ve been praying and waiting and hoping and sighing and crying…and I’ve got to tell you…someone has been listening and responding and wants to meet you in the deeps of your needs and wants and desires and longings..
He will set you free and give you a new lease of life and a spring in your steps…never mind the economy or your current situations…those things can and will change…because the very thing you desire…desires you as well
Something good my friend is on the way…wait for it.
God bless you
Love Candy
Bestselling Author of ‘Not By Bread Alone’

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All is NOT lost…hang in there

As I write this article, I’ve just finished a bruising three months return to practice course in Nursing; I missed my husband’s work party and Christmas with his folks last year; my heart stopped beating on Christmas Eve because I was under so much stress and sickness ( I had the winter vomiting bug and flu) and I’m still waiting to hear back from the UK Border Agency about my leave to remain here so I cant get any work at the minute, except to answer surveys on line. Needless to say I am bored. I am stressed, and my faith in the Almighty was shaken. I couldn’t get what he was trying to tell me. What lesson I needed to learn. What path I needed to follow.
When you’ve wanted something for most of your life like I have and move to another country to find it, you assume that life would be easier. Kinder. That somehow you can just pick up where you just left off. Well I couldn’t. I applied to nearly 200 nursing institutions in this country without getting accepted. I got a job as teaching assistant which I loved but burnt me out in three years…so much so that I had to go home for a month to recover. And when I returned to England, I expected life to be nicer, more accommodating to me. But it wasn’t, times were hard and the economy was slowing down. People were losing their jobs and homes by the hundreds and by the time I started reapplying for nursing courses and got accepted, they were even worse.
It is easy to give up when times are hard, as I so thought of doing many times as I travelled the long lonely road to my nursing course. But I couldn’t give in. I couldn’t give up. I knew that God had brought me this far and he could carry me even further. It’s a quiet enduring belief even when my course didn’t turn out as I planned, the people were so different, and I needed the money to finish. I was angry. I was sick and I was resigned, but I kept God at his word. I kept reading inspiring stories of people who had done it before…surmounted all odd. I read scriptures of hope and encouragement, and when things got too hard to bear I went on you tube and i blasted out Christen music. Above all, I believed in something bigger and better than myself. I surrounded myself with friends, rang my family, took up cross-stitching and planned my next summer’s break – anything besides giving up and giving in.
I still have to work to on my course even though I’ve passed everything in. I still haven’t heard from the visa place in three weeks. I cant get a job and I sit at home praying for peace and sanity and good fortune to prevail. I crave to pack it all up and return home. But you see others in worse positions, struggling and making it through and it gives me hope that I can do it too. That the God I know always delivers if we have faith and hold on, even if jobs go and houses are repossess. If we can hold on long enough, we will see our good.
It is so easy to get discouraged in these hard times, broken down and depressed. It’s a natural reaction that should be examined in its context and then left to rot. Ups and downs are the natural flows of life. What has gone before must come again, and just how people survived the Great Depression and previous house crashes, they will survive this too. The trick is to hang in there and ride out the storm. Do this my any means necessary such as spending more time your family and love ones, find things you love, commune with nature, go for a walk. Sometimes the best things in life are free. And no I’m not expecting you to just hop off your coach and response. one of the hardest things to do is to get up while you are down, but you must believe that as spring follows winter. Surely things will get better.
We are humans – we have the incredible strength to survive no matter what. Out of all of the sperms that swam towards your mother’s egg, you were the one that made it. Survivor, Warrior. Fighter. It’s something the father put inside each and every one of us when we were born. The Lord says ‘I know that plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future’. Did you hear that? Hope and a future…where everything is bright and rosy. and you must start believing that now. You must start declaring good over your own life, your circumstances, your job, your marriage, your kids. You must speak those that are not …as if though they were. For life and death is in the power of the tongue and they who use it will eat the fruits thereof.
So yes even though things are tough and times are hard, there is hope that they can get better. The first step is to believe and to conquer one’s own fears and weaknesses. To seek help when needed and to not be alone. It is hard being spiritual when all around people are losing the way and each other, but it is the more reason to try, to go against the grain, your feelings, your circumstances, to declare blessings and peace and prosperity over your life. That you will not break. That you will hold on. You will survive and that you can get through it.
But speaking it, as we all know. is the easy part. Putting it into action is a whole other story.

Hanging Popsicles

Happy New Year everyone…
I’ve just survived three months of a very intense return to nursing course and I’m trying to start my new year in style by relaxing and having a bit of fun for a change,
which can be very hard to do if it’s cold and grey outside and you risk turning into a hanging popsicle if you stand outside for too long. No matter how long I’ve been here, it still takes me by surprise every time: the cold long winters, with no to no sunlight. How do the people in Iceland do it, or Russia or anywhere where you have to live with an electric blanket all day?
I long for hot warm sunny days and cold cups of lemonade to quench my thirst. I long for spring and life and animals coming out to play.
I long for what has been and what is to come again….long lazy summer days coasting the beach for windswept finds and an ice-cream firmly attached to the other hand…
I long for more…ooo I do long for more..
Anything but staring outside to my birdfeeder that has frozen because it’s so cold and where you’d better salt the front of your door because you slip and break a bone..
Ah my poor adventure driven lovesick soul..
Where can my lover be..
Where is she hiding from me..
With her big ball of yellow heat and smouldering charm..

Bring on summer already!

 

Candy Adderleydawe